bleehh

I wish i was more secure with myself. I wish i was more secure in my relationship, i know i dont have a reason not to be, but i always have nagging feelings in the back of my head that are just waiting for something to go wrong. He is incredible, i cant even begin to say how much he means to me, and how blessed i feel to just have him in my life. he is always there for me, i know he'd go to the end of the earth and back if i needed it. he makes me want to be the best i can be. I never want there to be a time where hes not there. I'd do everything and anything in my power to see him happy


i dont really know the purpose for that little rant but it wanted to come out. anywhoo i just have english left today, and wer watching a movie. i rememvber in high school when we prayed to watch movies, but now it just feels like a waste of time, like i could be doing something else than sitting on my butt in this dark room... meehhrr oh well


i miss my friends. i miss  Kc and Kristi and Ha and Tommy. I talk to Kristi the most i think. I'v met some awesome people here though. My closest friend is definitely Spencer Burg. We met at orientation and by some form of divine intervention hes two floors down from me so that worked out nicely. Spencer is a great guy, him and his girlfriend are hella funny together, and the three of us get along pretty awesomely. We went to a pumpkin patch yesterday and got some pumpkins to carve. Im carving the chicago bears logo into mine. EVEN IF A CERTAIN SOMEONE THINKS ITS LAME.  =P I love Halloween, some people say im too old for it, and to that i say NAY. free is free and candy is candy. haha


I watched the Boondock Saints with Spencer and his friend Kyle last night. HELLA GOOD MOVIE. I was freaking out when they had to cauterize their bullet wounds and when the italian guy got his finger shot off, but the dialogue was great and i shat myself when the old prison guy turned out to be their father... ohmagoodness.... Iv heard the second one isnt that great, but i might watch it anyways just to get the full experience.
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