Im back at sonoma.... loverly
had a really boring and mentally storming day. i dont know what i want out of this experience and it scares me. i hope there are others in my place as well so im not completely alone. everyone says, give it time! itl get better, yea but what if it doesnt. im not a negative person, i dont usually see my glass as half empty, but in this case, im having trouble reaching that half full mentality. i think once i declare my major itl get better, but even then im not motivated enough to take the initiative to go talk to a dean or look through a catalogue or even study for a damn test.
i loved being home, im so happy there. D makes me so happy, more so than many. and i dont know if he realizes that. i just want him to know that i dont want anyone else. yes i have met guys here, wonderful guys, but the one that has my heart is in fremont. and until he doesnt want it anymore thats where its going to stay.
i listened to the poetic stylings of sam starr today. truly, truly talented poet. lots of mental visions, tears, and tuna this evening.
class was dull, astronomy seemed to draaaaaaaag... an hour and a half to talk about 3 planets?
-__________________________- wtf.
meh i need something to occupy my time now that the show is over, loved that show, miss it alot. gave me something interesting to focus on instead of all these freaking GE courses.... theyr the worst they really are.
miss my girls, miss my guy, cant wait to go home again
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